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I’m Starving O Starving

Yesterday I had meetings up in Cincinatti (2.5 hours from where I live), so off I leave in the cold rain to drive north.  Had about 300 calories for breakfast.  Of course, when I was almost there, my cell phone rang and I was informed that the meetings had been canceled due to weather…

OK,  so I travelled on up anyway to have lunch with a couple of guys that I am working with on a software project.  Had some great Mexican food (I just can’t say no to a bolg ol’ spicy burrity and rice).  Eneded up chatting till 2:00 then drove back to the mountains of Eastern Kentucky where I live.  Had a client that needed some software written and put into production by this morning, so I went straight to the office and worked until 9:00.  At that point it was too late to eat anything without feeling very guilty so I skipped dinner altogether.  Yea, very healthy!  That’s my lifestyle– constantly running one place or another and eating (if I eat) out of a drive thru window.  I just had to be self-employed.

Woke up this morning, had a banana and coffee for breakfast.  Now it’s 1:30 and I feel like I’m ready to fall over from hunger pangs.   My wife sometimes jokingly tells our three-year-old daughter that she’s a ‘Starvin Marvin’.  Haley (our daughter) says back in that cute three-year-old way, ‘I’m, starving o starving too, mommy.’

And that’s me, starving o starving.  Maybe I should get some lunch…

I spite of myself, I’m losing weight!!!

Monday morning.  Weigh-in day. 

I woke up this morning, dreading the scales.  I’ve been cheating too much, eating things that I usually don’t even consider eating when I’m not dieting.  Last night, for example, I sat and ate Peanut Butter Cookie Dough and drank a Pepsi.  What’s up with that?  I never eat cookies, much less cookie dough!

Anyway, there I stood on the scales, dreading the results.  I was just hoping that I at least hadn’t gained any weight.  Finally, the answer popped up on the display– 236.6 lbs.  What!?!?

I stepped off and then back on to do another weight check.  The answer came back: 236.6 lbs.  I did it a third time: 236.6 lbs.  Wow.

I am very excited, a total weight loss of 12.4 lbs so far.  That leaves me 64.6 lbs to go to reach my goal of 175 lbs.

It feels so good to be on the losing side of the weight war!

Back in the saddle

OK, just gave up for a few days there.  Finally, today, I’m back on track and hopeful as ever.  Sometimes, I guess you just gotta forego the dieting and take care of business at home.  It was hard to get back into the swing of things, but it feels good!

Feeling very discouraged

Today was pretty good.  For the diet, anyway.

Had a Slim-Fast for breakfast and went out to dinner with the in-laws at a great local steakhouse.  Did alright at the meal, considering the fact that I really wasn’t trying very hard to stick with the diet…  I’ve tried before going cold-turrkey with food and it never works.  Gotta let your hair down on occasion, as they say.  I know, I know, my ‘hair’ has been let down twice this week.  But that’s OK.

The frustration and discouragement comes at me from two sources.  First, the kids are driving me freakin’ crazy today.  My daughter (she’s three) seems to defy my wife and me every chance she gets, and it’s getting old.  Quick.

Second, and by orders of magnitude for infuriating, is this damn house we bought a year and a half ago.  It’s 10 years old and we’ve already replaced just about every damn thing in the place (that includes the flooring).  The heat (after I don’t know how many repair visits) still does not work properly.  The vents blow out as much cool air as warm.  Of course, the folks that send us our monthly gas bill have no idea, and probably could not care less that our furnace is a piece of junk.  Aside from that, my son (he’s two) decided that– for some unkown reason– it would be great fun to flush something big and solid down the upstairs toilet.  Dunno what exactly it was, but we’re pretty sure it didn’t come from any sort of processed food, and it’s most likely made out of plastic.  Oh, joy.

So, tomorrow after church I guess we’ll be moving in with the in-laws for a few days until all this mess is somehow straightened out with this money pit that we pay taxes on, pay a monthly mortgage for, pay insurance for, pay unknown numbers of repair people to try and fix, and try to live in, fixed.  Fixed, or at least an approximate semblance thereof.  Now, I love my in-laws dearly, but that doesn’t mean I wanna go live with them while the house is worked on.  For the third time in 18 months.

So, my diet is not very high on my list of priorities this evening.

Not so good, but not so guilty either

Did great for breakfast and lunch.  For supper, I decided to splurge a little and go for some Long John Silver’s– I’ve been doing great lately and I thought I’d treat myself to some tasty chicken planks, fries, hushpuppies and a Pepsi.  It is truly amazing how utterly sweet a Pepsi tastes after you’ve been drinking nothing but Slim-Fast shakes, water and un-sweetened tea for two weeks.  Yum!

Daily calores are 1,856, well over my daily attempted limit if 1,000 or less, but all in all not too bad.   You deserve a break on occasion so ya won’t give up completely.

It’s hard, so hard.

This morning I overslept and had breakfast on my way to work.  Breakfast was a Slim-Fast shake.  180 calories, not bad.  I had a ton of stuff to do in preparation for a meeting tomorrow morning, so I worked through lunch.

Got home at 5:30 and was starving.  We ordered a pizza, and I succumbed.  Four slices of a large pepperoni and one mozzarella cheese stick.   My daily total is 1,205 calories, which is still really good.

I really need to always have a little something for lunch.

The rewards

I’ve decided to reward myself when I reach 175 pounds. I know, I know: losing the weight finally will be a reward in itself. But I’m going a step further and giving myself a gift– something that I’ve always wanted but haven’t done for reasons of $$$. So, I am going to blow $1,500 on a Carvin guitar and Marshall Half-Stack amp when I reach my goal weight. There’s no time schedule to make, just and end-goal of 175lbs.

This might be a bad idea, but I don’t really care. It’s what I need to help me in this journey; to help me stay on focus; to help me not get discouraged. If I don’t lose the weight, I will not get the prize. I know that for a fact. It will be hard to justify it when I do reach 175..


Carvin DC 127
Marshall MG100HDFX/MG412 Slant Cab Half Stack

Oh yea!!!

Today was weigh-in day.  I was pretty nervous, not knowing how much I had actually accomplished in one week.  The result: 108!!!  I was shocked, needless to say.

Then I put the scales back into ‘pounds’ mode instead of ‘kilograms’ mode and stepped on again. . .

240.4 pounds.  That’s 8.6 pounds in one week.  I am stoked, though  know every week won’t be as pleasing, this is indeed good news, and a great motivator.

Though I know it isn’t very healthy, my goal is 1,000 calories per day.  If I can stay around 1,000 per day, I’ll be looking good and feeling fine in no time!

‘Before’ pics

Well, tomorrow is weigh-in day, and I think I’ll start taking a pic of myself each Monday along with the weigh-in. Last Monday I was 249 pounds but didn’t take a picture. I went back to find a recent picture of myself to post but couldn’t find any! Sure, there were tons of pictures of my kids and quite a few of my wife– but it’s daddy that always has the camera in hand. Thus, I had to go all the way back to Dec 3 to find a pic of myself.

And here it is: the way I looked on Dec 3. That’s me on the right, playing acoustic guitar and wearing the cap.

Right on!

The last couple of days have been great.  Staring to feel a bit like Jared, since three of my last four meals came from the local Subway.  Yesterday I ate a total of 1,176 calories.  Were I to do that every day, I would lose 2.8 pounds per week and reach my target weight on July 28.  According to MyFoodDiary.com, anyway.

Some of yesterday’s calories came from negative calorie foods, which is a bonus.  At first, I didn’t believe that you could actually eat something and end up spending more calories to eat and digest it that it contained.  According to some Google research, it’s true.  And that is a good thing!  So, it looks like apples, oranges, cauliflower, broccoli and lettuce (and some others) are freebies.  I am still counting their calories in my daily total, however.

Feeling very positive.  We are going to Myrtle Beach the last week of May with  my mother and father in law.  I expect this to be the first time since before I was married to be able to take off my shirt at the beach and not be embarrassed…  I plan to be under 200 pounds by then.